Derek

*you decide to have a venture filled solo vacation. you drive to the next state over and book a measly hotel with a pool and hot tub. you don't care how it looks because youre about to have the most sex of your life. you listen to your music and listen to podcasts and video essays the whole 4 hour drive. you stop on the way, indulging in take out, gas station snacks, and feel your bulge grow every moment you think about your time alone, ready to loose yourself. you feel that ice cold, heart slowing, clawing, and body numbing feeling at actually allowing yourself to check in, carry your bags to your room, swiping the key card, and being hit with that cold hotel ac and fresh linen smell. you feel that refreshing and sense of familiarity as you drink or smoke your choice of poison. you log